“A taste of a moment where space feels unreal. A slippage of all the unmentionables into a super mini blackhole from an invisible dimension.
This thirst can manifest itself into a wide variety of masquerades and can render an otherwise sound individual into fits of sporadic madness”
If you hardly know her
& would give her everything
If they’ve been together for a while
& she still gets random bouquets
If they look at him like a tall gingerbread
& would they’d eat every crumb, dipping him in cold milk?
So what? All chances of success are as good as gold.
A dreamer has as much solid ground as a realist, if you ask me.
I’ve seen many a beast in my years and had become several during brief interludes. I know what drives them forth towards crooked paths with unlikely outcomes and hazardous walkways under treacherous conditions just for a taste. A taste of a moment where space feels unreal. A slippage of all the unmentionables into a super mini blackhole from an invisible dimension.
This thirst can manifest itself into a wide variety of masquerades and can render an otherwise sound individual into fits of sporadic madness.
That right there’s the good stuff.
I’ve had dreams of us
dancing on the horizon of Marz
graphic scars on memoirs
so much so
I wake up in a red sweat
[ . . . ]
I’m on this Ride because I got the ticket against my will. Not even sure I was ready for life, let alone storming off somewhere I know nothing of without a proper travel pamphlet. The Ride you can come & go on but can never leave.
zoom zoom zoom
Off towards where exactly?!
Where in holy hell am I headed? What fun is travel if you aren’t aware of the destination? What’s the point of shooting off like a fiend out of hell from point A to M and back to C?
The ticket in my hand. Arrival stamp is my place & time of birth, the only ink on the paper.
“Oh, very helpful,” I can’t help but think aloud. The only thing you can do in the specter factory.
Or is this the way there? Have I been in the factory all along or was that many stops ago?
The Ride shifts gears and accelerates causing me to bump into the faceless figure in front of me. It grunts and straightens itself out. Passengers come and go and I wonder if they know where they are going either & have doubts that they do. Those full of life don’t glide about as a colorless blob, avoiding eye contact, no expression if they do.
“A ride to Hell this must be,” I wonder. A queer rocket ship flying through the moon’s orbit, a spirit trapped amongst the the human world unable to make contact without petrifying others into throes of The Fear.
If such a Ride is inevitable, as it appears to be, then there should be no reason I shouldn’t get off at the next stop. You’d think the unknown would be better than the chaotic dull of machine-like drudgery. Though, it hasn’t fared me well in the past to wander about.
One stop I got off at led me into a dark forest with a heavy ambiance as if a predatory beast lurked about in the shadows, a trail of pebbles lead me back to the Main Station.
Another stop was an isolated planet that rained sharp diamond particles, each boom of thunder a volcano of blue lightening, all in zero gravity. I didn’t stay there long.
The last stop I got off at was a space very similar to the familiar reality I had grown to know… only the atmosphere was prone to spontaneous combustion. One moment you’re having small talk with a patron at the bar and next you’re watching their face melt and skin fry in a purple haze of crimson fire. The sight & the screams are enough to change your brain wiring forever. I haven’t been in a rush to get off since.
Though I do know, that merely staying put, latching on to the rail for dear life, would only facilitate my own demise.
I shudder at the thought. The sins of my life weigh down on my breast, causing contusions and uneven breath. Tremors begin & clammy skin. The dirty dozens tapdancing on my frontal lobe, a hell hound’s fur left behind itching the inside of my skull. What pain reliever or fever reducer can cure that?
The doctor’s candy?
One little pill to ease the Downright Wretchedness, one to up the Established Corrective Order, & another in an attempt to rid the Abject EdHorror. Should be doing wonders but it’s a wonder if they’re really doing anything at all. A question that is hard to determine given the radical outside forces at play.
The Ride decelerates, the brakes clicking clacking on the track, the astral projections outside the sliding door window drawing closer to a stop.
Will I get off this time
or keep wondering where I’ll end up?
The ebbs & flows of the prescribed mind
weave in & out of time, bathing graciously in the great divine
Where, oh where, am I this time?
I take all the blame, baby, I’m sorry
I underestimated the magnitude & depths
of the idolization you washed my hair with
I know you wish I could be
the one you see
Vision can’t be trusted ‘less the night is starry
Feelings, emotions, & hopes a’plenty
Drove me gaga but now I see
they’re only summits and the sea
So much time spent frantically running like an ant from a cackling sadist with a lit cigarette can leave you feeling a bit sluggish. Not tired. An actual slug with no brain, sliding about on mucus with no destination, other than perhaps finding loose table salt in a ditch.
No More No More
Get out of that world.
Build a spacecraft if necessary. A funky mothership connection to the far beyond, boldly traveling to places far beyond the human reach. Pure unsullied space where insults and shaming can not be heard. Unforgiving but not a relentless torment. Where the tick of the clock has no bearing, not a time zone in sight. Make a creme brulee in zero gravity and watch that sucker billow into unrecognizable shapes.
Such drastic measures shouldn’t be necessary but alas, here we are.
If a spacecraft is above your means, find an alternate form of extrasolar travel. Perhaps pop the doctor’s candy in your mouth and will your body into sprouting wings. Pray for a pious archangel to come give you a lift.
No matter the method…
It’s time to go.
It’s odd, I’ve made no claims til now… but lack of an affirmative declaration is the onset of the undoing.
All I can say is
No More No More